Random Thought #22: Summer List

- Stay on top.

- Take care of that.

- Make sure to make that happen.

- Don’t  burn yourself out.

- Treat yourself out.

- Don’t get behind.

Random Thought #21: The Ella Enchanted of Los Angeles

First and foremost, never ever overprotect your children. They will go against you.

I don’t mean to advocate parental negligence but I am talking about parents who take their parental responsibilities too far. By being an overprotective parent, you’re not vaccinating them from danger but injecting them with insecurities that linger on forever.

Ask me, I am one of those children.

I understand that my parents love me very much and wish to protect me from harm but I think that they’re overstepping their boundaries. I’ve been told that by people that they couldn’t fathom how a person like myself could have parents who are frighteningly overprotective. I can’t visit friends or step one foot from the house without being marred as a criminal. As far as I know, I am usually home on the computer or in my room playing piano, reading or napping which aren’t really “criminal” activities per se.  I do my homework, I haven’t been arrested and I do really well in school.  I have spoken to them about this and highlighted their unreasonable rules but they never seem to understand.  

In order to deal with this, I’ve come to realize that no matter how old I am or how successful I am, my parents will always be like this. Since this parental practice has been in place for eighteen years, it can go for another eighteen years. It’s up to me to fight for what I want. I’m not asking for trouble nor am I advocating wrongdoing, it’s just that I would like to have time to socialize. Socialization is a human thing and well, I’m human. I feel that I haven’t been allowed “to be a kid” and as a result, I honestly don’t know how to relax.

 Rules were meant to be broken and sometimes when rules don’t make sense, it’s a sign that they’re overstepping their boundary. 

You only live  once.

Random Thought #20: To Be Honest, All Is Full Of Love…Really

There’s just something admirable about the way guys handle situations that makes them very different from girls. Girls would go there and try to hurt you as much as they could. They would sneak up on you the instance you’re not looking in order to leave you bleeding. Basically, from my experience, they don’t have “the balls” to face the situation head-on. Whereas guys, they’re pretty straightforward. There’s no wishy-washyness or unjustified callous manipulation involved.  I admire that.

I guess this is the reason why the phrase “grow some balls” came about.

anyway…Finals week. brb kids!

Random Thought #19: Tu m’as promis et Je t’ai cru

I need to figure out who my real friends are.

Tu es foutu.

Random Thought #18: You’ve Come a Long Way, Baby

“Hogwarts” seems quite lonely. Just about everyone went home and the campus seems so desolate. I’m always surprised whenever I see people over the weekend. I don’t mind because it makes me feel as if I’m Harry Potter staying over at Hogwarts during winter break. I like my school for giving me that feeling of attending a real life Hogwarts. The university itself is split into six colleges and that might as well represent the four houses in the Harry Potter books. They’re both similar in terms of the large bodies of water, forests and “Hogsmeade” nearby. And to top it all off, I’ve had professors who might as well been the illegitimate children of Professor Severus Snape. Maybe that’s why I choose my school…or maybe I’m coming up with these comparisons because I’m really bored.

Otherwise, I have a lot of homework to catch-up on and absorb. I’m still not done with my midterms and I’m so tired already. I spent the entire day working on chemistry problems. It’s not too bad but I just find it very easy to botch my calculations. Oh chemical equilibrium, how I love thee.

Because of that, I sometimes wonder if my science major is for me. I enjoy science and all but I can’t help pondering how I would have fared in film studies or literature. It sounds fun but my final verdict is that I would get burnt out. I do not know how I would be able to extend the lifetime of my creative energy in an “arty” major. I am always impressed by persons who pursue non-science majors because essay writing and art making is quite intense. I would explode having to use so much creative energy. Take for example, two quarters of college writing left me crying bloody murder. Not fun.

So you’re probably wondering…“so what do are you going to do with your science diploma?”

Probably use it to make a paper crane because it basically is a piece of paper. I’m slaving away in college for a sheet of paper that says B.S.!

No, just kidding. I find it pointless going through so much suffering for a diploma in order to transform it into a paper crane at the end. Quite masochistic and daft in my mind. I really don’t know what I want to do because life doesn’t have agreeable guarantees and refund policies that appeases everyone.

However, it would be phenomenal if I got accepted into medical school! I would stop, drop…..hammertime! Hug random people and be uber hyper because I have come a long way to get into medical school. I want that dream to become reality someday.

 But for now, I think I’m just going to enjoy my stay at Hogwarts and work towards realizing my dream. Usually “the Great Hall” is open until 1 a.m. but since it is a Holiday weekend, they closed early. Now if only I could conjure a sweet….

Anyway….“American Boy” by Estelle ft. Kanye West is the song of this post (trying to keep up with tradition) because I’ve listened to it so many times that it’s not even funny. This music genre is out of my element but it’s just so catchy and optimistic. Yes, my blog title should have denoted a Fatboy Slim song but I like them all. 

 

Random Thought #17: Epic Fail

It’s been in my calendar for a month and I haven’t budged.

In a few hours from today, I will be confined in a stuffy lecture hall with 200+ students frantically pacing to complete a midterm. Yes, a midterm because you know how much I LOVE to do midterms in my spare time. Not only that but I gladly volunteered to take three in a span of forty-six hours. Oh joy. It’s just too bad that I’ve lost the stamina to study.

Wait – no, I lied.

At the moment I’m studying for my art rock music class by listening to music. I may whine and complain about the worthlessness of general education requirements but sometimes I love them. It’s a nice break from all the science and math courses that I’m taking. Sometimes I feel apathetic towards learning chemistry, biology or calculus and just doing my music homework saves me from giving up on schoolwork and becoming a vagabond. I listen to art rock in my spare time and by taking taking this class, I feel as if I’m not wasting my time. Plus, this class isn’t intense as my other courses.

Anyway…I think I’m going to make it a habit by putting up songs that have been stuck in my head (see last blog’s ending with “Time To Pretend” by MGMT). This blog’s song shall be “Bunny Ain’t No Kind Rider” by of Montreal.”. I love of Montreal. They remind me of the Beach Boys and the Shins sometimes. It’s just too bloody sad I couldn’t go to their concert when they were playing at my school because I had a chemistry midterm the next day.

Midterms are indeed epic fails.

Random Thought #16: The Gracefulness of the Awkward Turtle

I found myself doing the awkward turtle recently and it was unintentional. It’s funny seeing how we display our feelings subconsciously. I was taken aback because I didn’t want to be rude but man, this person was kind of making me feel awkward. It’s like “chut up!”

Other than that, moths have invaded my dorm. I used to be an advocate for moth rights because I understood them to be “misunderstood butterflies of the night.” The thought of killing them never crossed my mind. I would always grab a napkin, scoop them up and free them outside. However, when there’s a swarm that won’t go away and a low-tolerance for handling each and every one of them humanely during midterms week, priorities change . I don’t want them to eat my clothes or my sanity! I can see that the moth balls are obviously not working. Must add more…

I tried studying today in this heat which failed miserably initially. Before buckling down and doing chemistry, I played MGMT’s “Time to Pretend” on repeat all day. It’s a depressing song but it made me all fuzzy and introspective inside. I guess it inspired me to do my homework just so I wouldn’t have a dead-end job. Thanks MGMT!

 

Random Thought #15: Eleanor Put Your Boots On

Now if only money grew on trees. I’d water that plant everyday and not let it die.

Random Thought #14: Totally Not Kosher

 I started school again and it’s my last quarter as an ickle first year. Aw, quite momentous! It feels like forever. I figured out what I want to do so far. I’m going to summer school and for fun, I’m going to go to Comic-Con. So I have a basic idea on the courses I’m taking, where I’m living and what I’m doing. SWEET. When you figure out stuff like this, you begin to feel pretty happy. Am I right?  I know I did. So I decided to treat myself out by walking to OVT because I was bored of eating Summit food and I was really hungry.

So I go there and made my order to the most obnoxious student worker I have ever encountered. I couldn’t believe that my school hired this jackass who gives me attitude and questions what I wanted. How hard is it  to accept that I wanted a hamburger? Not only that, he proceeds to gossip in front of my face to his co-worker. What a douche. I don’t know what his problem was but the last time I was disrespected like that was in high school Grow the fuck up.

Unfortunately, OVT Douchebag wasn’t the only one who made me angry. On the way back to my dorm, I was crossing the street and see this really nice silver Mercedes-Benz convertible in the distance. I’m like “wow, such a glamorous car.” I look both ways and begin to cross the street. And you know what happens? The driver accelerates and comes close to running me over. Okay, first off, I had the right of way. Secondly, this Mercedes-Benz Bitch of Muir Lane proceeded to sneer at me as she passed me. Thirdly, just because you have a Mercedes-Benz does not entitle you to run over pedestrians.

That’s just not kosher! But you know what? Before, I used to feel hurt and dejected over scenarios these but I’m not. I’m looking forward to a lot of things and people like them are not going to deter me. 

P.S. I like WordPress’ new update. woot.

 

Random Thought #13: Back to ZZ9 Plural Z Alpha

After a one year hiatus, I am back.

For a year I wasn’t myself. You could say I was a bit lost. I would think so considering all the things that have happened to me. It’s one of those instances where you let negativity consume you and you reach a point where you say to yourself “wait – what happened? I used to be happy before. Where did my happiness go?”

Well, I found it …soo, hello world! :]