I felt like Japan today. Hiroshima was the math quiz that took me by surprise. Nagasaki was the biology midterm that proceeded afterwards. I made it alive somehow. Oh why, must college be a vicious cycles of exams?!

’nuff about academic stuff…onwards to random musings!

  • The one word to describe me in a nutshell is…*drumroll* 
    IDIOTSYNCRATIC
    IDIOSYNCRATIC
    (Yes, I know what it means. I read the dictionary for fun.)
  • I am thinking of switching back to engineering because I’m loathing biology to the 321923809382093rd degree. ya rly.
  • I’ve adapted this mentality that actually lets you recover from setbacks in a quick and assertive manner. I call it the “well, they can suck it”/”stick it to the man” therapy. Totally does wonders!
  • I will totally purchase a domain someday. I must claim my plot of land on the internet and free myself!
  • The one song that summarizes everything as of right now is “Kaze Wo Atsumete” by Happy End. Such a mellow song.


  • until next time!

    1.) “Real Love” by the Beatles

    “From this moment on I know 
    exactly where my life will go. 
    Seems that all I really was doing 
    was waiting for love.”

    2.) “All is Full of Love” by Bjork

    “Maybe not from the directions
    You are staring at
    Twist your head around
    It’s all around you”

    3.) “My Cosmic Autumn Rebellion” by the Flaming Lips

    “But this one bird didn’t leave you
    It stayed through the wintertime
    You can’t hear it sing
    But you can hear it as it flies”

    4.) “Someday” from the musical West Side Story

    “Someday, somewhere
    We’ll find a new way of living
    We’ll find there’s a way of forgiving
    Somewhere.”

    5.) “Eleanor, Put Your Boots On” by Franz Ferdinand 

    “So Eleanor take a green point three point
    And turn towards the hidden sun
    You know you are so elegant when you run.”

    6.) “Crown of Love” by Arcade Fire 

    “The only thing that you keep changing
    Is your name, my love keeps growing
    Still the same, just like a cancer
    And you won’t give me a straight answer”

    7.) “Playground Love” by Air 

    “You’re the piece of gold the flushes all my soul. 
    Extra time, on the ground. 
    You’re my Playground Love.” 

    8.) “Against All Odds” by Phil Collins 

    “I wish I could just make you turn around
    Turn around and see me cry
    There’s so much I need to say to you, so many reasons why
    You’re the only one who really knew me at all”

    9.) “A Sentence of Sorts in Kongsvinger” by of Montreal

    “My mind rejects the frequency
    It’s static craziness to me
    Is it a solar fever?”

    10.) “Hold Me Now” by the Polyphonic Spree

    “Don’t ever think you’re the only one
    when times are tough in your new age.”

    Everything Will Be Alright

    Sometimes I think it’s weird how life tends to work out when you least expect it. It all happens the moment you stop believing. Instances like that remind me to keep my optimistic streak unclouded by cynicism. There’s actually more to everything if you look at it differently.


    stuff that has happened to good ol’ me:
    - zomg i finished the chem 6 series!
    - woot, i did ok in my classes. kind of bummed about that B I got in math. T_T
    - i got a lab job. whoop.
    - i went swimming in the ocean and made it alive.
    - finally saw the dark knight! I think it deserves an Oscar for Best Screenplay.
    - rekindled my passion for the piano.
    - started reading a book that wasn’t related to schoolwork.

    yeah, i think that’s it…not much socially. x_x

    I’ve been trying to find new music because I am getting bored of my iTunes library which is funny seeing how I have an endless amount of songs.

    heh, random rant… I think I’m starting to realize that I don’t like my major or my school. I just can’t feel the passion anymore.

    i think it would be awesome if i could be a renaissance type of person. someone in touch with the scientific and artistic inner-workings of the world. I guess, I want to be a chameleon. Knowing how to handle myself in situations by being able to change my colors would be phenomenal.

    …or maybe it’s just the weather making me think that.

    I got struck again and it’s not going to happen. This time I’ll try to extinguish it faster than you could call 9-11. 

    Oh, those bloody endorphins and rose-coloured glasses that never cease to elude me so!

    Other than that….stress. Nothing new really.

    When it comes to driving a car, I am as good as a blind man.

    My driving has become so rusty that it’s quite sad. All that practice and anticipation for my driver’s license has gone to waste. C’est terrible. So I guess it’s practice?

    yes indeed. 

    Other than that, my birthday went swell :)

    I have reached the sad realization that I am getting old. Whatever happened to my happy-go-lucky days? Ahh, those are indeed gone but I guess it was nice while it lasted. 

    Anyway, maybe it’s just the fact that I am taking courses over the summer instead of frolicking in the forest that’s making me feel old.  Summer school has been going swell but the campus is literally dead over the weekend. The quietness makes me want to study or clean which is honestly out of character for me.

    Surprisingly, I manage to find something to do but it’s just weird being in a dead atmosphere. Good thing my roommate has a car or I would have spontaneously combusted ages ago.

    Other than that, I got the new Beck CD. I’m really happy about that. Oh! and my birthday is coming up. Comic-con too! so yay!

    SIGH

    - Stay on top.

    - Take care of that.

    - Make sure to make that happen.

    - Don’t  burn yourself out.

    - Treat yourself out.

    - Don’t get behind.

    First and foremost, never ever overprotect your children. They will go against you.

    I don’t mean to advocate parental negligence but I am talking about parents who take their parental responsibilities too far. By being an overprotective parent, you’re not vaccinating them from danger but injecting them with insecurities that linger on forever.

    Ask me, I am one of those children.

    I understand that my parents love me very much and wish to protect me from harm but I think that they’re overstepping their boundaries. I’ve been told that by people that they couldn’t fathom how a person like myself could have parents who are frighteningly overprotective. I can’t visit friends or step one foot from the house without being marred as a criminal. As far as I know, I am usually home on the computer or in my room playing piano, reading or napping which aren’t really “criminal” activities per se.  I do my homework, I haven’t been arrested and I do really well in school.  I have spoken to them about this and highlighted their unreasonable rules but they never seem to understand.  

    In order to deal with this, I’ve come to realize that no matter how old I am or how successful I am, my parents will always be like this. Since this parental practice has been in place for eighteen years, it can go for another eighteen years. It’s up to me to fight for what I want. I’m not asking for trouble nor am I advocating wrongdoing, it’s just that I would like to have time to socialize. Socialization is a human thing and well, I’m human. I feel that I haven’t been allowed “to be a kid” and as a result, I honestly don’t know how to relax.

     Rules were meant to be broken and sometimes when rules don’t make sense, it’s a sign that they’re overstepping their boundary. 

    You only live  once.